i'm barricaded in the bedroom,
bananie's lappy on mine..it's hot on my thighs.. it's been on, word processing the end of a very crappy semester, all day. almost.... done... one....more.. five... page.. paper.. to.. go.. oh, and a final tomorrow.
i've never been so behind in my life. but,
i'm trying to be optimistic, take it in stride. miss
bananie is shuffling to and fro in the house. the
xmas tree is down from its hiding place in the attic, pieced together and fluffed.. still a little
wonky, but
i'm sure we can even it out w/ trimmings and a strong length of fishing line (because of the cats). it is so strange to have
xmas happening all around me, and here i am, sadly
ambivalent. last night i was able to forget all of my ill will towards the commercial craze. we scooted to mother
egans for some fish-n-chips to celebrate the cooler weather. i took my cupcake through many back street detours to look at the east-side lights. i forgot all about my
grinchy feelings and found myself enjoying all the twinkling-
ness of the modest little houses, decked out with large plastic nativity scenes or large shrines to the lady of
guadalupe.
i'm so glad for
annie... she gets me out of myself and into a 'treasure the moment' sort of mood. we ended up scooting over to 37
th street as well to see the block of lights. it's the first time
i've done that in a very long while, and it was quite enjoyable. we decided to park and walk through the light show, walking through people's back yards, collecting passes for free hugs and sipping on lukewarm
chai tea. it was the best association with holiday cheer
i've had in as long as i can remember. And the best part is that i was with my
bananie. no more missed holidays. she is finally my home. and for this i am very thankful. Annie makes the holidays a happy time for me.
A week ago miss bananie and i were in the desert of west tex-ass sweating our patooties off in the heat, but enjoying ourselves. soaking up the natural spring water and the bliss of off-the-gridness. Now it's back to the world of a/c and normal day to day grinds... except that i'm back in school. yep, my month of guilty pleasure is over. i'm excited, but apprehensive about the amount of work i'll have to produce in the next month. the good thing is that i'm working in east austin, so at least i won't have to make the 45 min commute this semester!
